....I suck

I suck.

okay i really suck

I have this huge weekend planned

therefore I'm still not blogging for the next two days

EXPECT SOME MAJOR AWESOMENESS COMMING YOUR WAY

uuugggh 

I suck

expect three spectacular blog posts tomorrow 

I'M SORRY

BEDA Day 9:....this is my 200th post?

While sprawled out on my teengirl bedspread logged onto blogspot I noticed something.

This is my 200th post.

This should be a big deal, I should be doing a crazy photoshoot, or have an insane style inspiration or SOMETHING

I even had excellent plans, I was supposed to meet up with Paisley which requires an hour long drive. I was gonna wake up, drive out, bring cupcakes and we were going to have a merry old time!

BUT

This morning I woke up with a sinus infection, so first thought, I asked my mom for Dayquil, I took a shot, then grabbed my car keys, she quickly stopped me and said "Caelan, you can't operate machinery on DayQuil"

to which I wanted to scream "WHY DIDNT YOU TELL ME THAT BEFORE I DRANK THE DEVIL'S ELIXIR!?!?!"

So I had to tell my dear Paisley that I could not attend our planned day of fun, but instead I had to rest and get better,

FRUIT THAT 

This is what I looked like all day

I watched A LOT of Zoey 101 and of course tumbled ALL DAY

I didnt do anything cool

I was lame

and lazy

ALL DAY

I laid around in booty shorts in my teengirl bedroom ALL DAY

and to be honest, I'm beginning to loose steam on this BEDA project, I'd really like some more feedback pwetty please!

So I guess I'll just finish this post with a few recent obsessions:

Music obsession:

The Killers cover of "Romeo and Juliet" while the original is phenomenal I think this cover is pretty damn fabulous

Article of Clothing:

My Betsy Johnson eensy weensy teeny weenie yellow (and blue) polka dot bikini

I wore this on fourth of july

and it is just the cutest thing ever.

Food:

So there has been two birthdays in my family one of which was celebrated with a party

well I guess everyone who attended wasnt hungry because we have a ton of cupcakes lying around our fridge

and to say the least, I aint complaining

Throwback obsession:

one of my kids brought one to camp and I was really good at it,

do yall remember Skip-Its

THEY WERE SO MUCH FUN!!

Literary Obsession:

and lastly

Medical Obsession:

for sleepy time

this stuff is The Gods Syrup :)

well I've got a sinus infection and a big day tomorrow so peace out my friends

please please please

Keep it sassy,

xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

oh and my thoughts and prayers go out to those in london, stay safe!!!

BEDA Day 8: Le Art Show.

So since I have a potential sinus infection 

and I'm lazy and frankly dont feel like putting a lot of effort in this post today

here are photos from the art show of my classes work from this summer

if you didnt know I assistant taught an art camp this summer

this was my classes wall

and our other wall

and Kelsey and my work was up in the elevator

look, a real life dreamboat

okay

I could explain more about the art, and share stories, 

but alas I'm feeling like total crap and I need to go blow my nose

so I leave you with this

Keep it sassy,

xoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxox

BEDA Day 7: This...That and The Otter.

So here is another recap post,

a video 

a few outfits

I'm sorry, I'll do another themed outfit post soon

Here is a video I did about what I'm packing for when I move

Onto more outfits:

I wore this to my friend Natalies 22nd birthday party!

I'm wearing a vintage dress made by my mother when she was 16

Shorts from Forever21

socks from....I wanna say Urban Outfitters? 

meeeeeow

my hair was being particularly voluminous

The night was fun. Mexican food was consumed and I played DD with a whole station wagon full of drunkards, when will they ever learn haha

Next Adventure:

PaisleyhasGoodIdeas and Sasssquatch do the Aquarium 

 Paisleys got mad style, be looking forward too a whole style segment on that n00dle.

I'm wearing this blue and white stripped sunhat from my momma

blue strapless leotard from American Apparel 

black highwaisted shorts also from American Apparel

Bag from See by Chloe

Sunflowers from a dreamboat

can you acknowledge how Wes Anderson the font of my aquarium is

tiny jellies

The great perhaps

coral!

I'm gonna be honest its 12 and I'm not thinking properly

so how about you just enjoy these lovely photos and we'll call it a day.

BEDA Day 6: Happy Birthday Elliott Smith

This post will be very different from my last.

Its crazy how tragedy happens, and how people can effect you, but everyday it hurts less and less

and you may even find yourself completing forgetting one of the people who once meant the stars and moon to you.

Today is Elliott Smith's birthday.

He would've been 42 today.

If you don't know, Elliott Smith is one of the most talented musicians of our time, his raw unfiltered unmanufactured voice,  ghostly melodies and bone chilling songs were nothing but real. 

Elliott Smith was able to make songs expressing emotions, real sadness.

You can just hear it in his voice, the pain, the sorrow, the hopelessness, all of it coagulates to form the most beautiful, perfect songs that just hit your heart like a bullet train. 

I never knew Elliott Smith personally but that doesnt mean that I don't know him.

I discovered Elliott Smith at a confusing, depressing time in my life, I found such comfort in his voice, I found someone who knew my pain (granted, it was teengirl pain, but it was pain none the less).

And in his words, "I'm never gonna know you now but I'm gonna love you anyhow"

I read his biography, bought a matching leather wrist cuff in attempt to understand him like how I felt he understood me,

But maybe that is the beauty of music, not necessarily to understand the people who made it, but to find your feelings put down in words to a tune that circumnavigates your emotions expressing them in a deliciously audible way. 

Regardless Elliott Smith has always been there for me when I was sad, or confused, when my best friend moved away, or when I dealt with a friends suicide attempt, he's done so much for me

and I almost forgot his birthday.

Life moves so fast, 

you wouldn't think it was possible, but sometimes you forget those who have left their physical bodies to  find the great perhaps. 

I can't beat myself up about this.

Elliott would understand, he fought his life hard for happiness, and when it comes to easily for me there is no reason to fight it.

All I can do is share his music, his voice, his story and hope that he touches more souls like he touched mine.

so here is to you Elliott

here's to 34 beautiful years on our earth producing music that will outlast your bones

and to 8 years in the stars being suspended, floating, and finally at peace

These are a few of the songs I find the most relevant.

my top 20 most played Elliott Smith songs

and here is a polaroid from my visit to Elliott Smith's wishing wall for fear I've already written about this experience, I'm just going to say visiting that wall was the single most spiritual moment of my life.

I love you Elliott Smith,

Happy Birthday.

Sincerely,

Caelan 

RIP

BEDA Day 5: The Little Mermaid.

So my little inspiration club and I got together to come up with our first collab post
I have to give a lot of props to Maddy for administering the group, I think we all know how busy I am.

I'm sure all the girls have written EXCELLENT posts, which I will link at the bottom of my post, but for now I can't even look at them or I would probably steal there brilliant ideas, so if I copied anything you said, please forgive me.

If you don't know, I grew up in Hawaii, first on the island of Maui then on Oahu.
So my love of mermaids goes waaaaaay back,
but being an 18 year old (who is still obsessed with mermaids)
I'm able to categorize my mermaid obsession into three films that have influenced me greatly.

1) The Thirteenth Year

This movie was a huge inspiration to me.
The Thirteenth Year is a 1999, Disney Channel Original Movie, about Cody Griffin, an adopted teenager who begins to develop fins, scales and other mermaid traits after his 13th birthday.
While I don't want to give the movie's plot away (wikipedia can do that for you), this film is so fun and sweet and suspenseful.
You know how everyone says "I was so sad on the day of my 11th birthday, because I didn't get a letter from Hogwarts"
FRUIT THAT! I was depressed for weeks after my 13th birthday when I didnt grow fins and a magnetic charge!!!!!!

Here are some other stills from the movie

Baby Mermaid.

90's dreamboat and that girl who was in EVERYTHING (hello, The Jersey and Stepsister from Planet Weird)

hehe.

boom. mermaid powers. 

here is the trailer:

and you can watch the whole thing on youtube if you inquire.

2) Aquamarine
okay, I needed to take a few deep breaths before writing about this one.
This movie, is one of my favorite movies, of ALL TIME.
of Eternity.
I was OBSESSED with this film in 7th grade, I saw it three times in theaters, bought it on DVD the second it came out, attempted to recreate every single outfit Emma Roberts wore in the film. Scouted the beach for mermaids, referred to my best friend Elise as "my Jojo," bought the soundtrack, memorized the soundtrack and actually cried to my mom once about how sad I was that it wasnt real (I have issues with reality vs. fiction).

This movie is a HUGE inspiration to me.
and I dont truly believe that I'll be able to properly do it justice.
but I will give it my best shot.

So,

Aquamarine is the 2006 film about two teenage friends Claire and Hailey (Emma Roberts and Jojo), who are soaking up their last 5 days of summer together before Hailey and her mother move to Australia.  One night after a violent storm Hailey wishes for a miracle that will convince her mother to stay, then BAM, they find the mermaid Aquamarine (Sara Paxton) in their clubs swimming pool, who makes wishes come true. 

Without spoiling too much of the plot, because you NEED to see this film, this film is so fun and girly and adorable.  

Not only is Aquamarine's tail AMAZING, but the acting and sets and cinematography its all just so cute!

here are some stills from the movie

So this is of course when they discover that they've found a mermaid.

Look how pretty that tail is! (I need to get my own tail already)

awwww girl power <3

This is when they go shopping and become all confident and what not

sooo cute

(Thats actually one of my favorite ice creams....no joke)

I always loved that quote

<3

Awwwwwww

I melt

I melt into the floor.

You guys, I'm going nuts here, this movie makes me so happy and its just so cute, and so sweet

AH I'm gonna burst.

oh and here is the trailer

<3

no joke, I literally almost started crying watching this trailer
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!?!!




and my last film of course is
3) The Little Mermaid
This was the first film I've ever seen ever. So of course I'm going to be obsessed with it.
Now I'm not even going to bother explaining this film to you.
If you were born ANYWHERE in the 80's or 90's you should've seen it.
Its one of Disneys best animated films EVER

here are some stills and gifs from the film

Goodness I never understood why she would give up mermaid life!

<3

see, If King Triton is down with Gay Pride, why cant the Federal Government?

So a million years ago I did this photoshoot inspired by the scene where Ariel first has legs and makes a makeshift dress out of scrap material and she's all wet and new and whatnot

(although Ariel didnt have rainboots)

And for today's post I created a new mermaid inspired outfit!

since I didnt have time to go to the beach, I took it by my fountain outside...cause water is water right?

I'm wearing my vintage fish belt

a blue strapless leotard from American Apparel 

and a long black chiffon skirt also from American Apparel

Forks make wonderful combs

And this was my makeup for the look

if you wanna know what I used just let me know

also note the starfish earrings, starfish are the worlds biggest suck ups

<3

other mermaid inspiration:

My grandmothers love for Denmark and for Eric Chase Andersons original story

(she left us many mermaid figurines)

The fact that I went to the beach the day before yesterday, it was a glorious day

and the amazing Little Mermaid pin, Paisley got me in Disneyland

hurrah hurrah hurrah

My Mermaid Friends

Sarahinwonderland

Her lovely Jellyfish ensemble makes me Jelly-ous that I didnt own her entire wardrobe!

A Witch's Style

Goodness, I'd really really love this girl to style me, I've never wanted to play dressup with anyone more than she. 

and this is the peak

I wish I could take underwater pictures with Lydia!!

<3 Madeline and Sophie <3

Sophie is just the cutest fish in the ocean, she looks like one of Ariels sisters!!

I wish I could take underwater pictures with you! 

now I'm off for a fantabulous adventure at the Aquarium, 

I was going to take off my mermaid makeup

but in the words of Aquamarine, "Why live life unnoticed!"

Keep it sassy yall,

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxo